now when's the last time you could actually see me laugh that big?

strangely speaking, but mine was the time at my grandparents house in bandung. i was only 4 years old.

the big laugh fits perfectly with the one back then.

and they say i look old?! think again! :p

"i'll stop the world and melt with you,
you've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time..."


sometimes wonder why things can't get better instantly. right now, things for me are looking pretty shity. it looks in place, but the feel's not. something wrong but i dont know what and which to fix first.

what's weird is that there's this figure who (at the moment) can trully made my day better. just from his encouraging words, sms, and spontaneous calls. but when the time comes for him who had the probs, i cant seem to help. things just get stucked and i feel useless. how can i repay these things, when the force just seems like standing still and wont let me in?

the peak comes when all of a sudden, i miss my jedi. i may not miss him that much, but i miss every single thing that made me comfortable about him.

so here comes another day. went for a long walk attending Benny Hinn's crusade at Ancol. it's a thrill to once again experiencing miracle first hand. everywhere i lok, there were people getting healed, cheering, and praising God. then i drew back and realize when's the last time i actually served Him that way.

btw, i got grounded. went home awfully late yesterday. 3am from woro's house. sigh, just in time when i want to stay over at ari's house this weekend.

*speaking of the devil, spoke to couple of people about this matter, and somehow, there is something going on. hardly cant see it in the first place.

for a second i wonder, how come women tend to flirt without them even knowing it? it may sound absurd, but that's the way it is. a friend of mine told me that it only takes 9 second to impress someone and send out that vibe which could make someone fell in love with you. if chemistry does floating around us, just waiting for that effort to break it through, then why some said they didnt have one? then there would be no such thing as: "i dont feel there's a chemistry between us." it has been a cliche phrase, and it will always be.

another thing, why do women got comfy, when a man touch her. as in skin to skin in any form. even though it's only touching the hand or neck or, whatever!! why why why??!!